So I have a HUGE decision to make…I will apologize right now that I cannot discuss what that decision is here.  (“So why are you even telling us if you can’t discuss it?  That’s not fair!”  you say.)  Well, because this place has become my outlet…..and because I need to vent it—my frustration with my indecision.

I have the opportunity to do something important…to get out of the house a little bit, and be an intelligent adult once again.   It is a chance to work with people I respect and admire without going back to work.  “So what’s the problem?!” you ask.  Well, the problem is, the list of cons is very extensive, almost prohibitive…. the list of pros?  All selfish, as listed above.

Have you ever grappled with a decision like that?  One where every ounce of your brain is telling you run as far away as you can, but your heart is telling you that you’d be crazy not to just go for it?  My dear Zan and my Big Girl say go for it…eveyone else I care about says I’d be crazy to get involved.  *sigh*  Little help there.

At times I think it could be an answer to a prayer…at other times, I think it is a test.  And I wish this was one of those things that I could say “in the grand scheme of life, this is a little decision” but it isn’t.  Being an adult is hard work sometimes isn’t it? 

Anyway…thanks for letting me vent.  I’ll let you know when I reach a decision over the next couple of days.   Pass along any words of wisdom you may have…any and all would be appreciated.  🙂