The post below is for my frequent readers/friends/family.

The password is my son’s full first name, which by now most of you know.

Please feel free to e-mail me if we are frequent corresponders and I will pass it along.

Darling Teenager has had a good week! Off came the braces on Tuesday! I have NEVER seen her smile more than I have the last three days. She rarely smiled this big before braces or during. 
I can’t stop looking at that joyful face. 🙂

…if she doesn’t write down her feelings while her darlings are cleaning this mess of styrofoam peanuts they made while she was distracted making dinner. 
Yes….DUMMY ME gave them permission to use them. Why??? Because I’m a DUMMY!!
Did I think they would crush them all to pieces? Of course not!
Why??? Because I’m a DUMMY!!!!

Really…it’s not about the effing peanuts mess…(okay…maybe it is just a little.) But what really irks the bejeezus out of me is that I vacuumed yesterday for the first time in many months.
And paid for it all night with a ticked off sciatic nerve.
Why did I think I could vacuum??? Because I’m a DUMMY!!!
And why do I think vacuuming is important enough to risk my back recovery when I have three kids in the house???
BECAUSE I’M A DUUUUUUMMMMMMMYYYYYYYY!!!!!

From henceforth I will be known as KD, not for KanniDuba, but for Kinda DUMB!!!

The End.

*I hate the rain.

*I love the rain because it isn’t accompanied by tornadoes.

*I’m pissed off at my back and my damned nerve.

*I’m thankful for my trials because they are much less than other’s trials.

*I love my family, they are so helpful!!

*Why can’t they keep their damned things off the damned floor?!!!!

*I love my house…it’s so cozy.

*I HATE my house! It’s damned filthy, and stinky, and falling apart? Why did we ever buy a damned old house anyway??!!!

*I want to take pictures.

*I can’t be bothered to take pictures.

*I NEED time alone!!!

*I’m so lonely, I need company.

*This pillow is too hard.

*This pillow is too soft.

*Everything is so pretty and green!

*Everything is so damned GREEN!!!!!

*I want to buy new blinds and curtains.

*I want to renovate the house.

*I want to start over and build a new house.

*Wahhhhh! I can’t leave my house!  I love my house!!!

*Wahhh!  I love my neighbors! I can’t leave them!!!

*ANOTHER DAMNED ANT!!! I HATE MY HOUSE!!!!

*I love weekends when we’re all together.

*I can’t wait till everyone leaves for work and school on Monday!!

This is a small sampling of my state of mind these days!  LOL  I think I am at war with myself.  My evil “twin” wants to be depressed and miserable, but my spirit is fighting the good fight, constantly keeping perspective, and reminding itself how fortunate it is.

Today, I take Scott’s advice and travel with camera in hand throughout the day.  The goal, capture the things I’m thankful for this day.  A day of gratitude is therapy for the soul.

So, the short and sweet of it…
MRI results are in…
I have two bulging/ protruding discs. One poking my spinal cord, one poking my sciatic nerve.
Seeing my Doctor on Monday to develop a plan of action.
The news could have been much worse, so I am grateful.

The journey of a thousand miles begins with a single (painful) step! I’m in the middle of a loooooong journey! However, yesterday I saw a woman with a beautiful 15 month old baby boy in her arms, with no hair or eyebrows and a kerchief on her bald head. My problems became so trivial in that moment…I sent all my prayers for healing her way yesterday.

Be well…feel blessed.